“Prom Queen”

All of my life in school, all the way up until I graduated high school, I was an A student and honors student. When I was in middle school and high school, I played basketball, softball, and volleyball. Academics and Sports was a big deal in the city I grew up in, Hartsville SC, and usually if you played sports, and was decent, you were socially “valued” or “respected”. Being smart wasn’t always a perk tho lol. It was also a big deal in the city to be selected as homecoming and/or prom king or queen. During these times, the winners were selected by unanimous votes by the students.

Fun Fact; I was the winner for Homecoming and prom queen in both middle and high school…

Why do I share this? I share this because I did not realize or understand that we were all being shaped on the foundation of social construct. “A false reality”. We were being trained to compete as children in ways that could build poorly character individuals, most definitely if you didn’t have guidance to keep balance in these concepts, so that you wouldn’t be caught up in the hype of the illusion of it all.

I remember not really thinking about whether I was valued or “liked” in my city, because since a child I played sports and was decent, so I never really experienced “social neglect”. I was well known and liked by most just bc of that, for starters.

Growing up with this sort of reality did shape me in such a way that gave me a confidence that was driven by the acceptance and approval of people. Mostly people I didn’t even really know. I had a confidence about my social status, but it was always a humility there bc I understood that I had a secret of being molested at a very early age, and bc of that, I had a slight insecurity, which indirectly always made me feel “neglected” and “abandoned” in a sense.  Though that reality was very unfortunate, I thank God for it bc it allowed me to see people who may have not been as socially accepted like me, as being valuable and respectable as well. A person didn’t have to be the best athlete or one of the smartest or most liked by the majority, for me to find them valuable or friend worthy, if we clicked in some way, that’s all that mattered to me.

Later, after choosing life under God, is when I fully learned that I grew up within a war of social construct. I really didn’t behave in life, like being a decent athlete, being prom queen , homecoming queen, being well known, and then being held to a standard by the parents that supported these “accolades”, was my drive, but it did aid in my views in life at some point.

I shared all of that to say, there is no social status in this world that is valuable to the Kingdom of God, if you are not professing Jesus Christ and/or living life intentionally in ways to please God. Who you are socially ONLY matters if your influence is tailored to bringing people to the knowledge of God and belief that Jesus Christ is the son of God, so that they may accept him and choose to live a life under God for the betterment of us all.

So, as a woman of God, I had to find my identity and status under GOD. This required me to forget the things of what created my value and status in a very small town, and accept my inheritance and status through Jesus Christ and be made new. Peter told a group of believers “But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light:”

Though he was speaking directly to them, I like to believe that this same statement is for the children of God today as well, which says THIS is the foundation of who I am, not a well known athlete, not an honors student, not homecoming queen or prom queen. These were simply roles that I played in a social war, that did not lead me to understand who I was under God, which would require me to die to self, and lose whatever status I thought I had in the world where I did not belong, but take on the crown that God had waiting for me as His Daughter and representer of Him❤️👸🏾 It has been a very humbling experience thus far, but if it wasn't for the grace of God, I would still be stuck in a war that was never mine to fight….Ouuu God I thank You!🙏 🙌🏽Find out who you are for the Kingdom of God, as this is the only “social construct” that matters and is valuable and respected by God our Father. The favor that you will find with God and man within this Kingdom, will show you that the illusion that many of us lived in and/or still live in, is the very type of ignorance that causes God’s people to perish…LEVEL UP and take your rightful position under our Father, THE KING👑 😉